Ich hatte fälschlicherweise gedacht, dass es sich bei diesen Kurzgeschichten um Geschichten aus der Lycidas Welt handelt. Was aber gar nicht der Fall war. Die Geschichten haben mir aber dann zum größten Teil doch ganz gut gefallen. Einige waren mir zu zu B-Movie-horror ähnlich, aber einige andere waren dann doch ganz nett. Und der Vorteil einer Kurzgeschichten Sammlung ist, dass man das Buch gut mal für eine Weile weglegen oder liegenlassen kann, denn in der letzten Zeit war ich meist gar nicht so in Lese-Stimmung. Ich hoffe, diese Stimmung kommt doch bald mal wieder, jetzt wo ich mich gedanklich und emotional auch mal wieder auf eine andere als die real Welt einlassen kann. Dazu war ich in den letzten Monaten irgendwie nicht so in der Lage...

So beginnt das Buch (mit einem Vorwort)...

Kurzgeschichten sind Sterne, die flackernd am Himmel funkeln. Man übersieht sie leicht, denn sie sind klein und zerbrechlich. Man hört sie kaum, denn was sie sagen, ist kaum mehr als ein Flüstern. Aber sie bleiben im Kopf, lange noch, nachdem ihr Ende verklungen ist und der letzte Satz gesprochen wurde, wie eine Sternschnuppe, die am Nachthimmel versinkt.
Kleinen Kindern erzählt man Märchen, die meist nicht mehr sind als kurze Geschichten. Wer erinnert sich nicht daran. Wenn die Eltern das Zimmer verlassen hatten, der Wind an den Fensterläden rüttelte und die knorrigen Äste an der Hauswand entlangschabten, wenn es richtig dunkel geworden war, dann kehrten all die Details zurück:
...und so beginnt Seite 98:

"Ich bin noch immer hungrig", sagte Leonore mit einem Lächeln, für das man keine Worte finden konnte. Der dunkle Anzug und das weiße Hemd einschließlich passender Krawatte erinnerten an die Mode der Vierzigerjahre und ließen sie zugleich distanziert und aufreizend erscheinen. Sie trug hohe, feste, Schnürschuhe, die den Dielenboden knacken ließen, während sie mit langsamen, geschmeidigen Bewegungen in der Wohnung umherging, ihr Umfeld begutachtete und mich nicht aus den Augen ließ.

I have to confess I missed it, when it came out and was nominated for the Oscars and obviously everyone went to see it. Hai_di saw it on the plane and wasn't that enthusiastic about it. And thus I never went to see it, because I didn't wanted to go and see it alone. Which usually doesn't bother me, but the movie just didn't interested me that much at that time. With the tragic and way to early passing of Heath Ledger I remembered that I still haven't seen the movie and rented it last week.
Well... I can totally understand Hai_di :-) I spend some time afterwards to pinpoint what the movie was lacking off. Because to me it definitely lacked of something. I didn't got that emotionally attached to their relationship. I know that they were supposed to be lonesome and taciturn cowboys and I know that the 60ies society was homophobic. So they couldn't act on their emotions. And with Ennis' history it was no wonder that he was so opposed to the idea. But still I wished the two of them would have talked a bit more about their relationship. That they would have been more open with their emotions. I usually don't need everything spelled out, but all of this was to subtle even for my taste.I didn't not like the movie, it was ok, but I don't think I will feel the desire to watch it again anytime soon. Or at all.

tinaskywalker, please don't hate me :-)

Yesterday I had to juggle with different to-do-lists and post-it notes at work (job #1). And that made me think about all the stuff I have and plan and want to do in the next couple of days. And how I never get around to at least organize all the thins in one list. I have tidbits everywhere. In different parts of brain mostly.
So I thought I really should sit down and write one complete list of everything to keep track. A list on paper would be lost sooner or later. Should I put it as a file on my computer desktop? I think I'd rather follow the example of sar_sunshine and put the list in my journal. I can not lose it this way. I can access it from anywhere. And I'll be pressured to actually do all that stuff, because it's too embarassing to leave half of it unfinished publically. [One could argue, that I still could cross things off without actully doing them. But trust me, I'm not that desperate.] And it might be fun... Or maybe not? There's only one way to find out...

So here's the list of all the things I want to have done by the end of next week. Not in chronological order, but rather descending from the things I have to do (but don't really like doing) to the things I plan to do (have to do, but also rather like doing) and finally the things I want to do (because I just like doing it). Well, some stuff might be somewhere in between these categories and some are rather optimistic resolutions. And it doesn't include all the things I already did, while i composed this list, because writing it down would have lasted almost longer than just doing it. And I don't even want to think about what I could have had done while writing down all this stuff. But tonight I feel rather lazy and unmotivated to do anything anyway ...

job #2 (10 hours/week, home office, flexible schedule)

• write the minutes of wednesday's two meetings

chores

• clean my apartement
• do at least one load of laundry
• iron laundry
• clean up the flowerbox mess on my patio
• measure the space for storage racks my storage room
• organize my mom's doctors appointments

shopping (irregular stuff)

• paperbags for organic waste
• cleaning tape for my VCR
• get some dishwasher tablets from my mom

green party / town council work

• prepare for meeting on monday
• prepare for the public transport county meeting in two weeks [well sort of at least]
• finish draft for the invitations
• revise the guests list
• draw up and mail invitations

website

• finish VK transcript
• add children book informations and theater reviews

postgrad studies (via distance education)

• finish drafting M10 - II.2 assignment
• revise M10 - II.2 assignment
• start drafting M10 - II.3 assignment
• complete M14 II.3.2 assignment
• read M 24 chapter 2.9 - 2.11

healthy living

• cook at least four times times
• try at least one new recipe
• work out at least three two more times

entertainment

• edit this weeks episodes of my shows [but only done for week 7]
• review "Brokeback Mountain" (DVD)
• review "Into the Wild" (movie theatre)
• review the book "Nimmermehr"
• watch at least one Schweighöfer movie
• watch at least one of the many many DVDs still lying around my place

[Ich freue mich über Kommentare in Deutsch oder Englisch...]

During the course of the day there were several different things I wanted to write about tonight. Very different things, first about something I've wanted to put on this journal (and will do so tomorrow evening). Later, much later, I wanted to rant about how much I hate parts of job #2 and about how so many things went wrong today. And now I'm home and all I want to do is go to bed, because I'm so, so tired. Even to tired too rant, which is unusual for me. I might catch up the ranting tomorrow, if I'll still remember what sucked today. These thoughts might have left my mind tomorrow, like I left three different things at three different locations today. Which sucked. And it even more sucks that I made that stupid decision to give up anything chocolate-y for Lent, because right now I could really, really need a piece of chocolate to help me relax. Or some chocolate cappuccino to warm up, after a 10 minutes walk at freezing temperatures.

I'm off to bed now, before my head will hit the keyboard...

[Kommentare sind natürlich in beiden Sprachen willkommen ...]